Feeling kills me..
After a week in the States, I felt homesick. I missed so many things I had back in Malaysia. I just wished that I could travel between space and be at both places whenever I wish.
Even though the people here are friendly, lecturers are helpful, new friends care for me, and everyone has a good smile on their faces; I can't help but feel empty.
This is the first time having this feeling. Everyday I long to see emails from Malaysia. Those writings keep me attached to the world that I originated. Those words kept me reminded of those lovely faces that I was so closed with just last 2 weeks.
I always tell Jasmine, be strong, and nothing's so big deal about leaving your country. And now, I can't find a reason for myself to stop drowning in nostalgia.
Maybe the excitement is over and things are getting settled down. I'm just too free now to feel down, hate myself.
OK, this is an emo post. Sorry for it.
But, these are the feelings kept deep down. I think I'm good in hiding them when necessary. I always wanted to be a bright person.
Wanna keep myself occupied. Or else, I will be thinking too much.
But, I have nothing to do now. Laptop screwed up, sent to service center, they told me it takes 3 weeks to repair. Can't imagine my life without my laptop. Gonna rent a laptop from library tomorrow. Currently using the PC at school.
Life's cool, but I am not.
Till then. Good luck in life. =)
